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I mention this only because it is a milestone. Today I am 80. I can’t believe it. That is so old. I mean really old. I don’t feel 80. I am full of piss and vinegar and spoiling for a fight. I’m angry that the country I love is rolling backward to before the New Deal. I’m angry that people who don’t love America are dissing our allies and showering kisses on tyrants. I want to kick some serious A—.

The year I was born was a bad year. 1938. A very bad year. Chamberlain went to Berlin and returned with a piece of paper promising “peace in our time.” 1938 was also the year of the Evian Conference, where 32 nations, including the U.S., met to consider “the Jewish Problem.” The delegates agreed that no one wanted to accept Jewish refugees. Sorry, no room for them. Germany was amazed that no one wanted “the Jews,” and they would have to devise their own solution. They did.

The next seven years were hell for the world. Many of my European relatives disappeared into Hitler’s camps and ovens. Somehow, the world came through. Many millions of people died before this scourge was eliminated.

I hope and pray we will come through this horrible era as well. A fascist in the White House, eager to define people and castigate them for their religion and ethnicity. A man so heartless that he would order border guards to rip children, babies, from their mothers’ arms, then lose them. This can’t continue. It is up to us to save our country.

Don’t send me birthday greetings. Send some money to the Network for Public Education. Anthony Cody and I co-founded it in 2013. We created it to fight the billionaires. They have the money. We have the millions of parents and teachers and graduates of America’s public schools on our side. Believe it or not, we have them on the run. We blog, and no one pays us. They have to pay out millions of dollars to set up bought-and-paid-for-blogs like The 74 and Education Post. We do it for nothing. No one pays me or Mercedes Schneider or Peter Greene or Tom Ultican or Gary Rubinstein or or Julian Vasquez Heilig or Jesse Hagopian or Nancy Bailey or Paul Thomas or dozens of other people who post about kids and teachers and schools and the corporate raiders.

If you want to, say Happy Birthday with a check to:

The Network for Public Education

PO BOX 150266

Kew Gardens, NY 11415-0266

Or make a donation online here.

We are a lean, mean organization with a staff of 1.5 people. We make as much noise as possible.

If you have a million, we won’t refuse it. If you have $5, that’s welcome too.

Plan to join us in Indianapolis October 20-21. We can celebrate the collapse of corporate reform together.

I’m angry about the fools in Washington, but right now I’m very happy because I know that DeVos and her wrecking crew will be footnotes in the history books. They will be forgotten, except as the bad people who fought democracy and lost. If they are remembered at all, it will be with contempt.

Courage, my friends, do the right thing, do what is best for children, do what matters most for real education, and you can look at yourself in the mirror every day and find the strength to keep fighting for what is right.

I’m staying around to cheer you on.

Last night, I watched my favorite movie for what must have been the hundredth time. It is “Singin’ in the Rain,” with Gene Kelly, Debbie Reynolds, and Donald O’Connor. I think it is very close to the perfect Hollywood musical (except for the song where Kelly and O’Connor ridicule the elocution teacher).

So, as I watched, I began googling sites about “The Making of Singin’ in the Rain”) and discovered some startling facts. (By the way, autocorrect hates it when you write the word “Singin’, and tries to make it “Singing”).

I already knew that Debbie Reynolds was a 19-year-old gymnast who did not have any dance training and was taught on the set by Gene Kelly. I knew that she cried and her feet were bleeding after the hours of making the famous number when they sing “Good Morning, Good Morning, It’s Great to Stay Up Late.”

In the climactic scene in the movie, Debbie (Kathy Selden) stands behind a curtain and dubs a song for the leading lady Lina Lamont (played by Jean Hagen), who has a horrible screechy voice.

What I didn’t know and just discovered was that Debbie Reynolds’ voice was dubbed in that famous last scene when she was supposedly dubbing for Jean Hagen! The actual singer of the song at the end, when Debbie was supposedly singing for Lina Lamont, was Betty Noyes.

Betty Noyes dubbed Debbie Reynolds’ voice in “Would You?” and “You Are My Lucky Star” and the final number “Singin’ in the Rain.”

Furthermore, when Kathy Selden dubs the line that Lina Lamont speaks (“Until the stars turn cold”) in the movie-within-a-movie called “The Dancing Cavalier,” the actual voice that was dubbed was Jean Hagen’s real voice.

So Debbie was dubbed by Betty Noyes, and Debbie was dubbed in the speaking line for the movie-within-the-movie by the woman she was allegedly dubbing.

Irony! The woman who was dubbing in the film was also dubbed.

This is a gem for those of us who love this movie.

And I still love Debbie, Gene Kelly, Donald O’Connor, and “Singin’ in the Rain.”

I will be speaking on Wednesday April 4 at University of Washington in Seattle. The lecture will be given at Kane Hall, Room 120.

I hope Bill Gates sends someone from his organization as I have some very good ideas for future funding.

On April 11, I will be speaking in Santa Fe. I will have details in a few days. I am sponsored by the Lannan Foundation. Jesse Hagopian will speak also.

On April 18, I will speak at Western Michigan University in Kalamazoo.

If you live in the vicinity, please plan to attend.

 

I am leaving this morning for an extended trip to Asia.

So long as I have Internet access, I will read your comments and share important news. I will write about what I see.

I am flying to Los Angeles, then to Hong Kong, then to Saigon (now called Ho Chi Minh City). I had the opportunity to visit Vietnam about 20 years ago, when I was in Hong Kong, but I didn’t want to. There was too much American blood in the soil. I couldn’t do it.

Enough time has passed, enough time for reconciliation (as a Jew I couldn’t bring myself to visit Germany until 1984 and have visited again many times, with great pleasure.) I will be with friends (all retired) on a cruise ship on the Mekong River. We will see Saigon, take a sidetrip to Angkor Wat, see the Cambodian killing fields, end up in Hanoi. Then a few days in Shanghai.

I watched the Ken Burns series on the war in Vietnam. It convinced me that our country picked up the colonial role of the French, who left Vietnam after their humiliating defeat at Dienbienphu. Our leaders warned us about the Domino Theory. We now know they were wrong. So many died. No dominoes.

While I am traveling, I will repost some golden oldies from the Blog every day, posts that I thought were significant and bear re-reading. I will also stay up to the date as th3 ship has Internet service.  I won’t be far away, except physically.

 

 

I felt like sharing a slice of my life, 24 hours of it.

For 25 years, my partner and I lived next door to a wonderful family in brownstone Brooklyn. She is German-born; he is Irish. They are Catholic. They have three beautiful daughters. They were children when we moved onto the block, now they are beautiful young women. The oldest daughter married a man of Irish descent. The middle daughter married a Chinese-American man. The third daughter was married last night to a French man who is Jewish. Their actual wedding was held in Cambridge last May, but their family wedding was held last night in Brooklyn on the waterfront, with the Statue of Liberty in the background.

The groom’s extended family–sixty of them!–flew over from France. A score of the bride’s maternal family flew in from Germany. People of many nationalities joined together to celebrate their nuptials. The ceremony was a traditional Jewish wedding, with a Chupah (a ceremonial cloth) stretched over the couple, a cantor singing in Hebrew, and a klezmer band playing Yiddish music. The wedding was followed by dinner and dancing and toasts. Some of the toasts were in French, and the French clan laughed heartily at jokes the rest of us could not understand. Then the French clan surrounded the happy couple and sang a song in English from the American musical “Fiddler on the Roof.” They sang, “To Life, to Life, L’Chaim, L’Chaim, L’Chaim to Life. And if your good fortune never comes, here’s to whatever comes, drink l’chaim to life!” (I remembered that many years ago, my husband and I bought a house in Pound Ridge, New York, from the man who wrote that music.)

A D.J., played dance music, most of it written and performed by African American singers. The dancing was spectacular, although it didn’t include me, because my knees are too fragile for dancing. Swaying, yes, not dancing.

For a moment, life was the way it should be. I felt as though this young couple and their family and friends were repairing the world.

Tonight, my partner Mary and I went to a cabaret–Feinstein’s 54 Underground–to hear Christine Ebersole, the wonderful actress and singer, perform. The room was packed. There was joy in the air.

Life goes on.

A good 24 hours.

Thanks to reader and teacher-blogger David Taylor for sharing this post from the far-far-far right Acton Institute.

The Acton Institute will hold its annual dinner on October 18 in Grand Rapids, Michigan. The keynote speaker is Betsy DeVos. There will be no protestors. She will be speaking to her tiny little claque of extremist libertarians, who are exulting these days about their great strides in rolling back the New Deal, shredding any safety net for the poor, getting rid of unions, eliminating pensions, and privatizing government programs and services. Betsy is their hero, because she has not only funded the free-market cause (and the Acton Institute) but has jumped into the arena to put her reactionary agenda into the mainstream.

The post includes the names and connections among some of Betsy’s friends.

Like J.C. Huizenga. Time for a personal anecdote. Many years ago, I was invited to lecture at Calvin College, Betsy’s alma mater. Betsy was probably in the audience. That’s when I was on the Dark Side, a period of my life that I have utterly recanted. What I remember best about Calvin was that everyone was so very nice. You know, midwestern nice. Not what I’m used to in New York City, where the default attitude towards strangers is brusque and even rude. At the end of my presentation and the reception, I met J.C. Huizenga, and he told me about his many business investments, which included a major waste disposal company and a morality-based for-profit charter chain, National Heritage Academies. Then he offered me a ride home on his private jet. Interesting combination of businesses. Waste management and charters.

Phyllis Bush is coping with cancer. She received the diagnosis six months ago. She meets each challenge as it comes.

In this post, she reflects on the latest twist of fate, thinking about the tragedy in Las Vegas.

How well I remember that sense of disproportion when my own 2-Year-Old child was dying of leukemia. He was in and out of the hospital six times, sicker each time, enduring dreadful treatments. About three months into this nightmare, a friend and her two children were killed instantly in a terrible car crash. One of the children was my son’s playmate.

There is no sense in any of this suffering. When bad things happen to good people, when the good die young, when tragedy strikes at the hands of a madman, don’t look for reason. There is none.

For the past several years, I have read studies about merit pay and “pay-for-performance.” Merit pay has been tried again and again for over a hundred years, and it has never “worked.” I became convinced that merit pay never works because, first, there is no evidence that it has ever worked, and two, the best it can produce is marginally higher test scores but not necessarily better education. Students can be trained like seals to get the right answer by using various strategies, but that doesn’t mean they are better educated.

Typically, studies of merit pay programs show that teachers offered a bonus for higher scores are not likely to produce higher scores than teachers who were not offered a bonus. Teachers are not hiding their best lessons, waiting for someone to offer them a bonus for higher scores. I remember Al Shanker saying, sardonically, “So if you offer teachers a bonus, students will work harder.”

The best book I found on the subject, which spurred other books, was Edward L. Deci’s “Why We Do What We Do.” Deci, a professor of psychology at the University of Rochester, subsequently inspired the work of Daniel Pink (“Drive”) and Dan Ariely (“Predictably Irrational”). He and Ariely served on the panel of the National Academies of Science that produced a report, “Incentives and Test-Based Acoountability,” which concluded that neither strategy improves education.

Deci conducted a number of studies with human subjects in which to test his theories. He concluded that when you pay people to do what they want to do anyway, you lessen their intrinsic motivation. When you stop paying them, they stop doing what they would have done without the bonus. People are motivated intrinsically by autonomy and authenticity. “Self-motivation,” he wrote, “is at the heart of creativity, responsibility, healthy behavior, and lasting change.”

It is one thing to read books about motivation. It is another to test it in your own life.

About two years ago, I discovered “Words with Friends,” a computer game that you play with friends and strangers online. It took a while, but soon I get the hang of it and found myself enjoying it immensely. I learned new words like “za” and “xu.”

At some point I realized that I could earn digital badges if I reached a certain number of points within a set number of days. I was very motivated to win the badges, even though they had no value whatsoever. I began fervently collecting badges. I started playing with strangers so I could collect more points by playing more often. At one point, I was very close to earning a badge but none of my friends was online. So I sent an email to Anthony Cody and asked him to please start playing so I could earn points. Anthony, by the way, is a master of the game and regularly beats me. He knows more exotic words than anyone else I know.

Then I learned something. When I earned a badge, I lost interest in playing the game until a new badge was offered.

In other words, I proved Deci’s theory. I began with intrinsic motivation, but the badges converted my desire to play into a competitive race to earn a digital badge. When I won the digital badge, or when it was clearly out of reach, I lost interest.

I tried to play without paying attention to the digital badge, but the App kept reminding that I had earned 25% of the points or 50% of the points needed.

There is no way to turn off the badges.

The badges damaged my love of the game. I was no longer playing it for the fun of making words, but for the badges.

Since writing this post, I stopped caring about winning badges. I no longer look at my scores. I am dropping the strangers I play with. Writing the post has helped to break the addiction. I am playing for the fun of the game, not for the prize.

Deci was right.

This is indeed a new world. When I was in my early 20s, and probably long after, the word “cancer” was not mentioned, especially to the patient. The protocol, for some reason, was to lie to the patient as long as possible.

Phyllis Bush, dear friend, founding board member of the Network for Public Education, and a retired teacher in Indiana who also founded the Northeast Indiana Friends of Public Education, has been fighting cancer head on. She may have fears, but she deals with them by writing about them. She holds nothing back.

Her courage gives all of us courage.

Kisses and hugs to Phyllis and her loyal friend Donna.

Happy Mother’s Day to all you Moms out there!

I hope you enjoy the day and have the chance to see your child or children.

I had three sons. One died of leukemia at the age of two.

My sons are my treasure.

Though I must admit that I am sorry that I did not have a daughter.

My two sons each have two sons. They add to my treasure.

Enjoy your day!