Susan DuFresne has written a moving post about her precarious life as a teacher in the Age of “Rephorm.” Read it and believe. This profession is worth fighting for. The rephormers write mandates and regulations, use their money to impose their will, but they wouldn’t last five minutes in a classroom. Teachers must reclaim their classrooms, reclaim their profession. They will not destroy it; they will not destroy us. They will lose because what they do hurts children, hurts our society.
Susan writes:
What will happen to us as teachers, parents, students, and democracy as we continue to struggle in our mandated race to the top of corporate education reform?
Home for winter break from my work as a teacher, I find myself too exhausted the first several days to take care of anyone but myself. When we get on a plane they tell us to make sure we put on our oxygen masks first, then take care of our family. Self-care supersedes care of others. You cannot care for others when you yourself cannot breathe.
As a teacher, we have little time for self-care. More often than not these days – we are holding our breath – waiting for the next data point we need to collect and record. We are entering the “death zone” – the death zone because we are slowly dying for lack of the fresh air of creativity, joy, and love. The lust for data has consumed the space to breathe, the space to feel safe in a hospitable environment, the space to take care of ourselves – or the millions of voiceless children.
As teachers, we are being exploited by the corporate reformers who profit from their failing experiments – and our families are left with nothing but ghosts of who we once were…..
It is only December, and yet I feel like a porter carrying the immoral weight of reformy slick packages – a porter who has trekked to the top of Mt. EdReform not given the resources we need to survive. Much like the Sherpa, I feel like I don’t have what I need to make the mandated trek to the top of Mt. EdReform, and what is left of my profession is becoming a data service industry that only benefits the companies getting rich. As the summit nears it doesn’t resemble anyplace suitable for human beings. I have more second thoughts about continuing my profession and feel closer to succumbing to burn-out than ever before.
From the movie, Beyond the Edge:
Above 26,000 feet is what we call the death zone…the death zone because you are slowly dying.
Just as the mountain above 26,000 feet is uninhabitable – classrooms in public schools across the country have become uninhabitable for human beings – teachers and students alike.
The climbers of 1953 spoke of how much effort it takes for each step forward, how confused their oxygen-starved brains became. When struggling to take the oppressive steps of corporate reform, I too feel I need to take 15 breaths to cover just one step of one of their new initiatives. I haven’t caught up with completing the last initiative, when a new one is presented, we’re asked to implement the new initiative in yet another lesson to teach, we’re asked to be observed teaching the new initiative while under scrutiny of more data points to collect, and then it is time to go off to another meeting about what evidence we need to collect for our next data meeting, then have another meeting to plan our next data meeting.
With each step further into the world of corporate reform, I become more confused about why I chose this profession and I recognize that a small part of me is dying slowly – as is a small part of each child. Where we once had art, music, creativity, joy, love, learning through play, and autonomy – many of us now have endless testing and data collection, data entry, data analysis, and meetings upon meetings about data.
The corporate reformers have sucked the life out of teaching and learning. The real purpose of education is lost in a blizzard of data – numbers entered onto a rubric to become bits of data – trillions of 0’s and 1’s about each child are flying at high speed, tracked and collecting in data banks like so many feet of snow to be mined for corporate profits – icy cold they create systems of punishment as dangerous crevices – an abyss of corporate created failure – a place devoid of all humanity for children and teachers to try to traverse. We can feel the heaviness of fear and oppression — and the sense of impending death — as we deepen our voyage into this uninhabitable space.
A perfect description and very moving. If you are a teacher, you have to feel her pain – sorrow for her, our students, and our society.
Do we really want to live a life without joy?
Absolutely not.
Dear Robert ~
Thank you for your response to my words. It is the suffering of our students and my colleagues – as well as my family – more than my own self-preservation that drove me to write. Yet, I know if I can’t take care of myself, how can I possibly help anyone else?
I wrote in hopes that the emotive response would engage others to act to end corporate reform. How else will the public know if we do not tell them the truth? Education is a public responsibility as well as a public right. The people can turn this around and breathe life back into our schools together.
No, we do not want to live in this dehumanized kind of environment. We must bring back the joy and humanity. Check out the #WhatIf questions on Twitter for some great ideas on how we can do just that.
In solidarity,
Susan DuFresne
I empathize with this writer. In December, I the last three years have felt total exhaustion. I find myself visiting a clinic to only hear it is bronchitis again and rest is what I need. I find myself in November and December scrambling to share with the students a variety of traditions and an opportunity to enjoy the moments of life, yet always pushing to complete developmentally inappropriate modules, end of unit testing, reading of which students must close read and infer, data driven instruction meetings and curriculum, as well as Math that they have only had one year to try and understand with so many gaps in the process. I am a teacher. I still have so much passion in me. I will continue to fight this. I know colleagues from around the state will too. It’s historians such as Dr. Ravitch and so many others who are feeling the same, especially groups such as BATS and Lace to the Top, that keep me relying on a fresh new breeze coming our way. Follow them. They will help you find peace within. Close your door. Enjoy the children. For they are who we all got in this for. Find yourself being a conscientious objector. We know truth. Money can’t buy happiness. Maybe it can for the billionaires, but we all know it never was about money that got us into teaching. It has been and always will be about the children. I wish you well. Data will not prove anything.
Dear Ddermady ~
Your empathy is appreciated and returned to you. Yes, the passion has not been driven out of me either, but I can feel it waning to dangerously low levels due to exhaustion, demoralization, and oppression. Diane suggested that I wear my safety harness while on the edge. My safety harness comes from the connections I have made across the nation – from other leaders in our fight such as Diane, Anthony Cody, NPE, CORE Teachers, Seattle Equality Educators, BATs, Lace to the Top, The Backbone Campaign, the student activists, Moral Mondays, the Occupy Movement, and more.
In my classroom, I am a conscientious objector as much as possible. Example: My classroom had been under a great deal of stress. We were encouraged to promote an #HourOfCode during a 2 week period “celebrated by the nation” by my district. Instead, I gave my children a two week period of an #HourOfPlay, based on their needs rather than the reformer’s desires for profit off of software/technology. My kids get enough screen time, but do not get enough unstructured play time to develop the self-regulation skills they desperately need.
The initiatives I wrote about are real. That we are forced to implement them under the scrutiny of administrative observation tied to our teacher evaluations is real.
I am a strong union supporter, but my union needs to shift their priorities towards what they can do for children and members by FIGHTING corporate reform. We don’t YET have a fighting union in our country – at the state level, or locally – except for a few successful social justice caucuses. (CORE, MORE, SEE, etc.) This movement needs to spread. The work is challenging and slow without the billions the reformers have to spend on organizing and lobbying the next reform. But we must make connections with our community to do this important work. That takes time and energy – thus the self-care comes into play once again. Our unions need to begin to take STRONG, DIRECT actions against the reformers across the nation. I call on them to do so. Everyone of us needs to do the same.
If unions, parents, and students stood side by side, we could stop this oppression in a heart beat. That I believe and that still gives me hope.
In solidarity,
Susan DuFresne
Thank you Susan. You let me realize that there are many such as I who have felt the pressure. Thank you for your reply. Together we will make change.
This post was eloquently written; I understand what you are saying. However, I am frustrated because I want to figure out how to move forward. Going back is not an option; what can we do? How can we form/join a group to stop the insanity?
We have a group to stop the insanity. It is called the Network for Public Education. Google it and join us. Come to our second annual conference in Chicago on April 25-26.
Dear RTIPlanningForCognition ~
Thank you for your comment. Yes, I too am frustrated by the long slow struggle. Many of us have been fighting this for years, now. We want it to end and a loving, joyful, humane education to replace it NOW.
By your tag name, it seems you may be an educator. If so, I encourage you to become part of your union and demand that they become a “fighting union”. Form a social justice caucus within your union. Contact CORE Teachers for more informaiton here: http://www.coreteachers.org/ .
Make connections with parents and students, social justice groups in your area locally. Educate and activate them. Organize and take direct actions using creative artful resistance. Get media attention to your actions.
And as Diane said, join the Network for Public Education. Come to our conference in Chicago in April. You can find all the information about the group here: http://www.networkforpubliceducation.org/.
Find your local/state Badass Teachers Association group on Facebook. You can find out more information about them here: http://www.badassteacher.org/
As the comment suggested above, become a conscientious objector in your building – but don’t act alone. Work with your colleagues. There is strength in numbers.
In solidarity,
Susan DuFresne
My exhaution and lack of joy are unprecedented. I exist. I no longer create things that were once an important part of who I was. My health has suffered but I don’t take the time to see doctors (health care providers now) unless I can schedule time after work. My heart goes out to all of the teachers who are facing the challenges of this author.
Just when I thought Arnie Duncan couldn’t get any worse I see the following from the article:
I think the best thing that happened to the education system in New Orleans was Hurricane Katrina. – Arne Duncan, US Secretary of Education (2010
The trauma of that disaster alone must have had a profound effect on the children – his thoughts or lack thereof are very scary indeed.
Dear Ms. Cartwheel Librarian ~
While our stories and lives collide, we must connect with one another through our stories of truth to find one another. Once we find one another, we are no longer alienated, isolated, and afraid. We can begin to heal and to build up the necessary strength to resist together. Please search out others in your building by sharing my own story with them to bring about a discussion. Find ways to resist in the comment replies above.
Yes, the trauma on children by corporate reform must be documented and stopped. This is a terrible time in our history. From this oppression, we are forced inside a crucible that will soon give birth to a nation of resistance that we have not seen since the 60’s – perhaps even stronger resistance.
Each of us must find a way to become part of this resistance, even if the ways are small at first. Empower one another through encouragement. Thank you for yours…
In solidarity,
Susan DuFresne
As I posted yesterday, there is in my view an even more fundamental problem with school reform than that about which we usually talk. i.e., School reform; democratic idealism or autocracy? Who decides the validity of “ truths” taught; scholarly research or political hacks? Politicians now make out tests, grade them and teachers, schools are evaluated on how well students assimilate, regurgitate on written tests that which government asserts as truths.
Who decides educational goals? Professional educators, child psychologists, scholarly research? Political, corporate controlled test scores now supplant, usurp historical humankind’s best minds stated educational goals.
These issues are unstated, evaluated in school reform “debate” but democracy survives or perishes on how these questions are answered.
Dear Gordon ~
These are great and important questions. Clearly right now, the corporate elite decide these things. When will the people take back their power?
Make the connections, organize, and we can make that happen.
In solidarity,
Susan DuFresne
We hear you, Susan. Sadly, many of us find ourselves in similar situations. What’s more, when we follow what conscience and experience tells us to do for our students, we get in trouble with admins focused on the Danielsson jailwork, and other diktats. Indeed, from my experience, the more we work, often on our own time, the more we get reprimanded. No good deed goes unpunished, as the saying goes.
Dear AHumbleTeacher ~
Thank you for reading my blog and for your empathy. Yes, that scrutiny and punishment when we don’t “follow orders” is part of the fear and oppression I was discussing.
What if we all stop following orders at the same time? I think first, we have to heal those who are too afraid and beaten down. I am working on a professional development with a social psychologist for this purpose to help our teachers. I will keep you posted about this.
Please read the replies to comments above on how we can get ourselves out of this mess. We can if we act together.
In solidarity,
Susan DuFresne
Sadly, I can relate to Ms. DuFresne’s feelings perfectly, especially the part about losing the joy of teaching, and being a mere ghost of who I once was to my family. Thank you for sharing this piece, as it puts into words what I have been too despondent to explain to family and friends.
Dear Kay ~
Thank you for reading my blog and for your empathy. I encourage you to read my blog post to your family, even if you have to choke through the tears. We have to open up the truth to ourselves and each other in order to get to the point of healing that will give us the strength and courage to fight back. Ask your family to join you in this fight. Once they understand how this is impacting you, they can be part of solving the problem.
While all of what I wrote is true, I am grateful to my husband, who has been at my side for every protest and even gone to retreats with fellow organizers/activists to support our battle for children, teachers, public education, and democracy.
Diane suggested that I use my safety harness while on the edge. I encourage you to let your family know and ask them to be part of your safety harness. Then look to the replies above for more ways you can join in the fight. We can do this together.
In solidarity,
Susan DuFresne
Having survived (barely) 10 years in both public & charter… I’ve now been teaching for 1 1/2 years in a Catholic school (my first 4 years of teaching were also in a Catholic school). I’m much happier; however, the years of stress all during the NCLB era have taken their toll… my health is shaky… having to take very gentle care, and I’m only in my mid 40s. I mean… I know eventually we all need tune-ups & maintenance, but sheesh! All my ailments are directly related to having been stressed for a long period of time. Throw on the fact that I got caught in the student-loan bubble, where my payments only take care of interest and barely touch the principle, plus working two other jobs to keep my head above water…. all I can do is shake my head and keep plugging along until my body gives out.
Dear Hannah ~
I wish you better health and the student loan bubble is a whole blog in itself! The financial stress that teachers are under is almost consuming in itself.
Kind regards,
Susan DuFresne
Hang in there! As a retired early-childhood educator I can feel your pain. I am sad for you and all the others out there, especially the children, who must tolerate this fiasco in our education history. Ten years ago, when I was still teaching, we thought the data collection and high-stakes testing imposed by No Child Left Behind was atrocious, but over the years, it has become apparent that it only continues to become worse, especially now with Common Core and its testing.
I pray for you and our whole public education system, which has become so unfair, especially to the students who struggle. I certainly don’t have all the answers, but it is very apparent that our whole system, especially the children, were much better off before this travesty called “progressive education” took over our schools. I pray for my grandchildren in middle school, encouraging them to try to carefully evaluate the curriculum so that they don’t lose their way, changing them into corporate, indoctrinated robots, spewing the liberal trash they have to endure in some classes.
Please take care of yourself. As you know, if you don’t, no one else will. Take it ’til you make it, and handle those children with extra-special care!
Sandra
Dear Sandra ~
Thank you for your encouragement and your thoughtful prayers. I would not want to assume that you are not involved, but I hope that retired teachers take a very active role in fighting back against corporate reform. Retired teachers who hear about these terrible shifts have little to lose compared to those with our jobs on the line. We need all of you to join with us in this fight.
In Washington State we are lucky to have two retired teachers who work on fighting corporate education full time now. They are looking for more to join us. Contact me at SusanDuFresne48@gmail.com if you are a retired teacher in WA State who would like to join us.
In solidarity,
Susan DuFresne
Problems with the Common Core Standards keep confronting us. Each school and district have their unique challenges but none as great as the inner city and teachers “living on the edge.” It’s mind boggling how a group of non-educators can be so naive about the countless problems that constantly confront educators and then to have the audacity to tell them how and what to teach.
Susan DuFresne wrote, “The rephormers (sic) write mandates and regulations, use their money to impose their will, but they wouldn’t last five minutes in a classroom. Teachers must reclaim their classrooms, reclaim their profession. They will not destroy it; they will not destroy us. They will lose because what they do hurts children, hurts our society….”
Truer words never spoken. Standards are flawed to begin with and then to mandate them for teachers and students all across the nation is asinine -especially for the inner city. Do the reformers enforcing the Common Core standards actually think that mandating those standards for everyone is going to improve the quality of education in these most difficult areas?! I lasted one year in the inner city. It had to be the worst of the worst building which has since burned down: broken windows not repaired; a fight upstairs brought dust down on the desks below; a class consisting second language learners, learning disabled and At Risk students; insufficient outdated and inappropriate text; unsafe because of a lack of security at that time, no basic materials in the classroom…Materials I bought from home including hardware took legs. I had to bring in cleaning material to wash the desks. The children were very sensitive – one comment about someone’s mother and a fight would in sue.
But even if the students had the best teacher in the world, an inviting, attractively decorated room; and had all the hardware and software teachers needed, it wouldn’t be enough. If children are behind before they begin, they won’t be able to catch up under normal circumstances. As “Titleonetexasteacher” stated, a nurturing home environment and inner drive are needed for students to succeed. Agree, teachers can’t do it all; parents have to support their child’s learning at home. (Certainly there are parents in the inner city that support their chid’s learning but not all.) The parents may like to take advantage of what the public libraries have to offer but then there are problems of getting there.
The worst problem is the violence some of the students come from. “NJ Teacher” stated it clearly, “Among my students are children who are really, really hungry, wear clothes that are in tatters and have chaotic home lives. Family members are serving time. People they know have been gunned down on the streets. Drugs are omnipresent. It is amazing that they concentrate to the extent they do.”
Violence begets violence. Just one bully can disrupt the entire classroom. If a student is given an impossible task or a task that he/she is convinced he/she can not do, that student too often will become a class bully, clown, or withdraw all together – more problems to deal with. All the testing in the world is not going to improve conditions but only sink the students lower into depressed state of mind and a poor self- image. A teacher has a double challenge when children have a defeatist attitude. The teacher first has to prove to the students that they can learn. The CC and the high stakes testing only reinforces the students’ poor self-image.
Besides all the problems of an inner city school, the worst is the CC itself. It just isn’t realistic to expect all students in this diverse society to achieve under the yoke of the CC which hinders the activities that support the love of learning and the will to learn. They only reinforce a defeatist attitude in too many students.
What we need are governors like Governor Jindal of Louisiana who will sue the Obama administration over the Common Core and tests.
You’re wrong about Jindal. He was for the Common Core before he was against it, and would be for it again in a heartbeat if he thought it would poll well. He’s a fraud, through and through.
Dear Mary ~
Thank you for reading my blog and for taking the time to reply. I want to add a correction to a quote you presented and give credit to the author: You said: ‘Susan DuFresne wrote, “The rephormers (sic) write mandates and regulations, use their money to impose their will, but they wouldn’t last five minutes in a classroom. Teachers must reclaim their classrooms, reclaim their profession. They will not destroy it; they will not destroy us. They will lose because what they do hurts children, hurts our society….” ‘ – just to clarify, that was Diane’s lead in to my words which followed below. 🙂
I too want to defeat Common Core. It is only part of the problem, but a very large part. It is tied to the tests. The list goes on and on. Let’s work together to end corporate reform altogether. Read some of my replies above for ideas.
In solidarity,
Susan DuFresne
Susan DuFresne, You said it well. The exhaustion and fatigue of good teachers has all to do with what they know they should be doing vs. what they are forced to do. All this data collection has nothing to do with educating children. It’s a quick fix to a problem that does not begin and end with a classroom teacher. Data can be manipulated by corporations to show success when success is not there. My fear is what will be the long term effect on our students who grow up without what they really need to be successful in life? And concerning our students with special needs, the damage done cannot be changed.
Dear Denise ~
Thank you for reading my blog and for your kind words. Yes! “The exhaustion and fatigue of good teachers has all to do with what they know they should be doing vs. what they are forced to do.”
The damage being done to ALL children is frightening. Has anyone done a long-term study of the consequences of corporate education reform? If not, someone ought to do so.
In solidarity,
Susan DuFresne
Christine, I take it you don’t like Governor Jindal for whatever reason. He reversed his position of on CC and its high stakes testing – give him credit for that. Why would he be so adamant about suing the Obama administration? He is not the only governor who wants to rescind his position but to my knowledge is the only one who took on the Obama administration to the point of suing.
Thank you so much for such a beautiful article. The article perfectly reflects the extreme mental and physical fatigue of a teacher. It is pitiful. This fatigue never goes away, and we feel very guilty as we try to raise our own children and provide them with a normal life.
It is so frustrating to remember all that I used to be able to cover in my classroom. The older teachers, like myself, remember. I return on January 5 to begin two weeks of test prep practice testing for the PARCC. It is time used that I will never get back for the instruction of my students. The ridiculous thing is that I now have to give hours of testing in February!!! I desperately need that practice testing time to teach the February content!!!
February in Ohio is nothing but snow, ice, and two hour delays! My students have been tested to death since they entered kindergarten. They’ve had enough. I know I’ve certainly had enough. I feel sad they have to take hours and hours of testing in order to fill the pockets of Pearson and complete my teacher evaluation rating. It all makes me sick. There should be laws forbidding to do this to innocent children. The sad thing is that the people responsible for all of this make sure their children do not have to do such nonsense. Their children are permitted to be children.
No truer words were said. I long for a time where my expertise, insight and students’ needs determined the flow of my lessons.
Dear Sad Teacher ~
I have heard from teachers all over the country, the UK, Canada, and Australia who relate to how we are feeling. Getting this out in the open is important to allowing the festering wound to heal.
You said: “It all makes me sick. There should be laws forbidding to do this to innocent children. The sad thing is that the people responsible for all of this make sure their children do not have to do such nonsense. Their children are permitted to be children.”
Exactly! Read above in the replies for ideas on how we can join together to fight back!
In solidarity,
Susan DuFresne
I completely feel this