From a teacher:

Confused,

As a teacher in Connecticut, near Sandy Hook, I saw the look on my fellow colleagues faces that we no longer could say that something like this could never happen here. I teach in an amazing suburban school district, like Newtown, and it was clear that our high school was in no way safer because of its location if something like this could happen a few towns away.

Yet I knew that many teachers in Connecticut were having similar thoughts. My husband teaches in the city of Bridgeport and he heard the news while he was watching his 5th graders during recess. He messages me that he could barely keep it together as he saw them playing innocently on the playground when just a few weeks ago the school was locked down for the third or fourth time this year due to gun violence in the neighborhood.

I received a call from my mom who teaches kindergarten also in Bpt. and was home ill yesterday. We both began crying as we shared that we knew it was a kindergarten that was targeted. I knew it could have been her school,which is my sons school. My son, who I know we both were thinking of at that exact moment, whose kindergarten classroom is directly across from hers.

This could have been my aunts school or any of the other 3 schools that I have had the honor of teaching in. This was the school of my fellow friends and high school classmates. Yesterday I learned of who was safe and today I have been told of how my circle of friends and colleagues has been impacted. We are not safe in our classrooms just because this and other tragedies have happened in different states, different towns, or other coasts. This is the elephant in the room that so many have ignored and said that today is not the day to address.

We as teachers have homework to do. We need to be the ones that have the conversation regarding the reality of gun violence in our country with our government elected officials. We need to be the group that regardless of our political affiliations stand together and say that enough is enough. We need to be the group that marches and says we will not leave until our children can go to school and be safe.

In the next 15 days I will give birth to our third child and I pray that this child will never have to hear what we heard on the news yesterday. I pray that my son will continue to be shielded from the events until I can explain it to him when he is older. I pray most of all that children will be allowed to keep their innocence and not have someone steal it away. Ironically, yesterday in English we finished reading The Catcher in The Rye. I find myself wishing I could follow Holden’s dream and keep the children of Sandy Hook from loosing their innocence.