From a teacher in New Jersey:
Testing Frenzy Steals Learning Time from Students
The public school testing frenzy is at an all-time high, and it is robbing our students of time to learn. Take it from me, an elementary school teacher from New Jersey with more than 30 years of experience. In an effort to be ready for the state-mandated PARCC tests, we are hurting the very students we most wish to help. School administrators and teachers are tasked with ensuring that state-mandated tests are properly administered. But the time it takes to plan and administer these tests takes away precious instructional time.
In the last several years, I have witnessed egregious misuses of student learning time. First, months of test prep are done in all the grades. In addition, test prep packets are sent home with students night after night. Then, PARCC testing itself lasts approximately 3½ to four weeks. After that, there are at least one if not two weeks of makeup tests.
Beginning one or two weeks before testing, support staff such as librarians and Basic Skills Instructors for reading and math are reassigned for days at a time to check equipment and do paperwork. Because these test-support teachers also monitor the tests, their classes are effectively cancelled for a month or more. Speech and occupational therapists are pulled out every morning during testing to monitor hallways.
English language learners (ELLs) have even more required testing. There’s a lengthy ELL test, ACCESS, which drags on for four to six weeks. After that, they must take the PARCC tests. As I write this in late April, ELL classes have been cancelled 49 times since the start of the school year, not including teachers’ absences. In my district we have a 185 teaching days in our school year. Do the math on lost instructional days, and remember this is time for learning that our students are legally entitled to.
And there’s more! My district has math and language arts benchmark tests at the beginning and end of the year. There are prep materials and computer-based practice tests given for a month or so prior to the state-mandated tests in grades 3-6, for about one and a half hours a day. In addition, the district has purchased a computer-based assessment for K-8 that they will begin using next year. (We have not settled our contract, but they have money for this.) I assume this will be used throughout the year to gauge progress. So still more test prep. Testing and data-driven numbers have become the single focus for districts.
The pity is that test-support teachers don’t take students when they are not monitoring the tests. What a waste of taxpayer money, not to mention students’ lost learning. Where are the administrators? Do they not know what is going on in their own schools and districts?
Knowing that most teachers are hard-working, caring individuals, I was so angered by students’ lost instructional time, I emailed the state of New Jersey. I wanted to know the minimum time requirement for support programs before they are deemed ineffective for student learning. After weeks and several follow-up emails, the state education department replied.
What I learned from the reply was that, technically, the state requires classes to continue even during testing cycles. But many principals do not enforce this, and classes are sometimes canceled by teachers. However, if the state did not require so much testing and follow-up paperwork, perhaps teachers and administrators would prioritize students’ instructional time. Nor, to my knowledge, does the state enforce its requirement.
Needless to say, other teachers are also frustrated by time lost to testing, but many are just starting their careers or otherwise do not want to speak out for fear of being be targeted by administrators. No one blames test-support teachers for doing what they are told during testing periods, but I do blame administrators for looking the other way when instruction can be given, for not abiding by the state’s recommendations, and for not providing substitutes for children in the classes that end up being canceled.
I am nearing the end of my career, so I will not hesitate to right a wrong when I see it. If we are afraid to speak out about what’s happening in our schools, how will parents ever know what their children have missed and how unlevel the playing field has become for so many students. We need noble, fair and decisive administrators to oversee well-run schools and districts, and, of course, less testing and more authentic learning.
Lisa Rodriguez

From a special ed perspective, additional instructional time is also lost. Students cannot miss standardized testing in order to receive IEP-mandated instruction. At my school, this includes not only PARCC and ACCESS testing but also IStation, our district-mandated reading test. Children with low reading scores are given the IStation more often than average and above readers so as to monitor their progress, but of course that means additional loss of instructional time for our students with the highest needs.
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Here we hit upon the vicious paradox attached to “fixing” our low-income lowest-scoring kids’ education with test scores —- the more time we use up for testing our children, the less time we have to educate our children. And, the less time we spend on educating our children, the less well they will be able to do on their tests, producing test score results which will then be used as “hard data” to prove that these children need MORE TESTING…to find out if they are learning.
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You, too, Ciedie can be an adminimal. You just have to learn to not pay attention to your inner thought and logic. Get more money and not have to think, just follow orders.
But what you state makes sense from a money making viewpoint.
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Lisa, google deliberately Dumbing Down and you will see what is behind the testing.
C. Iserbyte is wonderful.
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I suggest you google her first.
https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Charlotte_Thomson_Iserbyt
Sounds like DeVos without the money
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“Sounds like DeVos without the money”
Sounds like a human being without the brain. The woman is a loony!
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Parents must know their rights. If they don’t feel this testing is useful, say so!
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Interesting. Both Democratic candidates in Virginia are defending public schools, and both candidates say the focus should be on public schools, not charters or vouchers:
https://www.washingtonpost.com/opinions/two-democratic-hopefuls-for-va-governor-on-schools-metro-and-the-minimum-wage/2017/06/04/5aea5776-47c6-11e7-bcde-624ad94170ab_story.html?utm_term=.c1673cf6ebc1
Maybe ed reform isn’t as popular as we’re constantly told it is? These two seem to be deliberately distancing themselves from it.
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But Tom Perrielo was a DFER favorite in 2010 when he ran for Congress. They named “Reformer of the Month.”
People change their minds. Has he changed his or is he pretending? He got a contribution in 2017 from Nick Hanauer, charter school billionaire.
Can we trust Perrielo, even though he was endorsed by Sanders and Warren?
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The culture of fear expressed in this and other letters from teachers is intended. The purpose is to keep at bad the opportunity for teachers to tell the beancounters to take leave of schools and if there are tests, to have all of these designed by teachers and also some of them by students. It is outrageous that these tests are marketed as if they are “protecting” the civil rights of students because they allow tracking of the “achievement gap.” Tests are not needed for that because the hard fact is that parental education and SES and a host of conditions well beyond schools matter in the whole of what and how any student learns in school. How many times has the “Coleman report” from decades ago been used to sidestep the out-of-school factors that bear on learning? You cannot test your way out of the effects of entrenched poverty and discrimination. A fortune in money and time and stress is wasted on this alt-belief promoted by professionals in bashing schools and cashing in tests.
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SCREAM!
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Page 1 of today’s Chicago Tribune: “Illinois Science Scores are Late: 2016 Student Test Results Would be 1st Under New Standards.” !!! This article goes on to say, “The current IL Science Assessment was put together using test questions from the Washington, D.C.* school district, a process that was not ideal because Illinois was under pressure from the federal government to give a science exam in 2016 after missing the science test in 2015,” & “budget woes blamed for late test scores.” Really? No money to pay scorers, so less accurate pass/fail “‘cut”‘ scores were utilized.
(Here’s an original thought: since there’s no $$$, why not spend what money there is an actual education & NOT tests?)
*Like Washington, D.C. is a model school district & a shining example of how we should test in other states-?
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The other casualty of the testing in language arts and math is the time lost to science and social studies instruction at the elementary level. If teachers do manage to squeeze in some science instruction it is usually reading about science from some out-of-date textbook. That way teachers can justify science lessons as a way to improve students’ skills in non-fiction reading. The Next Generation Science Standards encourage students to explore phenomena using science and engineering practices. Reading about science does not cut it. This is certainly not the fault of the teachers. It comes from administrators who, in many cases, are being evaluated by the same useless rubrics that are used to evaluate teachers.
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I see that a few years ago there was collaboration between DFER and others including the NEA in support of the SMART Act. As per DFER: “This is the best legislation we’ve seen yet to support and improve state student assessment systems and to identify and reduce over-testing.”
https://dfer.org/dfer-supports-bonamici-gerlach-smart-act-to-improve-student-assessments/
I’d be curious to know whether collaborative efforts continue on specific approaches to improve the situation.
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It’s time to test presidential candidates. If they pass, they are allowed to run for president if their party selects them. Candidates that fail, are barred from holding an elected office and lose the right to vote. In fact, I have the perfect test.
Could you pass a US Citizenship test?
“In order to become a US citizen, immigrants must pass the Naturalization Test. American citizenship bestows the right to vote, improves the likelihood of family members living in other countries to come and live in the US, gives eligibility for federal jobs, and can be a way to demonstrate loyalty to the US. Applicants must get 6 answers out of 10 in an oral exam to pass the test. According to US Citizenship and Immigration services, 92 percent of applicants pass this test.”
http://www.csmonitor.com/USA/2011/0104/Could-you-pass-a-US-citizenship-test/Who-signs-bills
I want this test to become retroactive to 2016 and Trump must take this test. If he fails, he has to resign from the presidency but the passing rate must be 80-percent or better.
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Lloyd,
How about if presidential candidates are required to pass 8th grade tests in math and English? Most would not make it. Trump? Rick Perry? Mike Pence?
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Agreed. In fact, anyone who wants to open a corporate charter school or supports vouchers should take all three of those tests. If they don’t pass, they lose their citizenship and get deported to Russia, the country Trump admires more than his own country.
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This might be worth it if the test-prep was actually mentally nutritious, but I doubt it is. What exactly are students gaining from all this? The writer laments the loss of “instructional time”, but I suspect a lot of that instructional time is test-driven too –lots of word problems in math; lots of supporting claims with evidence in language arts. Little information about the world we live in –which should be the “main course” in a kid’s mental diet. I wish more elementary teachers would speak out about the dreary regime that’s taken over our K-5 schools.
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Sometimes it does seem like thinking about thinking is being stressed over having something to think about. My job as a special educator required a lot of attention to the learning process, but it was never isolated from what the students were trying to learn.
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Diane, I am posting my observations on the testing obsession here because I can’t locate your email. You may publish this if you like, although I didn’t take time to edit it 🙂
Recovery for…..teachers……for our profession…..for the children in our care:
After spending three weeks as interim counselor assisting with “The State” tests in a North Carolina upper socio economic middle school, I am once again inspired to speak up. In this particular school, the children were all obedient, polite, and diligent as they sat in silence listening to a script read by a teacher, then labored over their test booklets, worksheets and lap tops, every day for a solid week, first thing in the morning until noon. Some finished early, so they sat at their desks and starred into space since there were no other options, and they could not leave the room. The test administrators were all super organized and the teachers marched to orders as if they were part of a fine tuned machine. The stress was managed well and only a few students had breakdowns and were sent to the office in tears. In one 8th grade class that I proctored, after the test ended and the teacher left to take the tests to the office, I looked across the room at the 29 students all sitting straight in their desks facing forward, silent, blank stares, dissociated. It reminded me of Emily Dickenson’s poem: “After great pain, a formal feeling comes”…..The Nerves sit ceremonious, like Tombs
This increasing militarization in schools is happening across the country, in “high performing” schools like the one I observed, and in “low performing” schools that struggle with more stress and drama. This is unnatural. This is “institutional emotional abuse”. The authoritarianism that has taken over US schools that is masked as “standardized testing” is the same authoritarianism that created a sociopathic society in Germany prior to WWII. This obsession with “performance” and “control” is not only unnatural, it is emotionally abusive and should be illegal. It is behavioral engineering of a sinister nature. Children have no rights, except through adults who are responsible for them. Where are the responsible adults who are supposed to protect children from this kind of emotional abuse?
As a veteran teacher and counselor who entered the profession with pride and passion four decades ago, I can now say I am ashamed of what the teaching profession has become. Schools are no longer about education, they are about punishing children. They are about turning principals and teachers into frightened “adult children” who will perpetuate cruelty to other children. Schools have become a convenient social institution for creating an oppressive society of codependent workers who will perform as loyal followers and not complain about their cruel treatment. Our schools are perpetuating emotional abuse of a nature that causes self punishing behaviors that lead to the addiction of workaholism. Our schools are producing workers who will deny their own basic needs to perform for authoritarian others. But worse, we are causing young children to become“self punishing” during their developmental years, which puts them on a self destructive path for life.
Don’t be distracted by the outward appearance of beautiful buildings and trophies on display in the tidy halls. Four or five consecutive days of four-hour standardized testing for young children is cruel and inhuman treatment. And, the week of testing is only the finale to a year of chronic stress and obsessive drill leading up to the test. This is covert torture from deranged politicians and corporate lobbyists and snake oil salesmen who apparently get money and pleasure from punishing children. These elected “leaders’ are no different than other sadistic perpetrators who abuse children in various cruel ways. This creeping dysfunctional regression in the school environment is a symptom of a disturbing social phenomena of self punishing behavior that is becoming epidemic among children and young adults. Is this happening because workaholism is a covert addiction in the teaching profession and we have brought this on ourselves?
Schools appear to be in an evolutionary process of discovering how much torture and cruelty children can tolerate to obtain higher and higher performance before they break. As a school counselor who has observed behavior in schools since the late 60’s, what I have observed in recent years is a sinister dysfunction of management that looks like OCD on steroids. This increasing authoritarianism in an “incarcerated” environment is causing young children chronic traumatization that will lead to self destructive behaviors and mental illness. What dark force has sabotaged the teaching profession? How has this deception been so successful in a public institution? Part of the answer is gaslighting. Gaslighting is the tool perfected by higher authorities in “The State” to control administrators, teachers, parents, and especially children. Gaslighting is the modus operandi of sociopaths.
Billions of US tax payer dollars are being wasted to perpetuate unnecessary standardizing testing and chronic anxiety that is destructive to children and teachers. Billions of hours are wasted by teachers and administrators who are required to jump through hoops and follow insane testing procedures as if they were staging for D Day. Teachers are no longer respected as intelligent professionals who can be trusted, or are capable of performing on their own. Instead, they too have been exploited with fear and their regression is showing. Teachers who participate in this madness for a time begin to behave like “adult children”. They begin to appear emotionally desensitized and function more like robots than humans. This is the dysfunctional behavior of codependency.
Teachers are no longer allowed to use their professional expertise or creative talents. Their individuality and vitality have transitioned into conformity and dissociated mind blindness. They are being obsessively controlled and scripted, which causes them to function in a chronic state of hyper vigilance. The underlying anxiety of this dysfunctional coping causes hyper reactionary behaviors that project cruelty and aggression when triggered. Teachers are being conditioned to disrespect themselves, their profession, and their students. Children are being conditioned to devalue and disrespect themselves, and to be loyal to those who punish them with cruelty. Their attachment to their teachers is more like trauma bonding that comes from fear, rather than secure healthy attachment that comes from mutual respect and trust.
In this environment of authoritarianism, teachers and students are socially isolated and emotionally deprived of their human qualities. Children’s basic social and emotional developmental needs are being ignored as a result of political incompetence, arrogance, and abuse of power. Not only is the school environment neglecting children’s basic social and emotional needs, it is teaching them that self denial and self punishment are “normal”. It is teaching them loyalty to abusive power is a “good” thing. Most children in emotionally abusive environments try to survive on the crumbs of kindness that are occasionally tossed out to keep them following. Those crumbs are becoming less and less as teacher exploitation and indoctrination increases. Why are teachers not seeing this abuse? Is it because the dysfunctional coping of codependency causes “mind blindness”.
No teacher with a moral conscious, empathy, or common sense, would intentionally harm children, unless they had been indoctrinated with fear. Teachers have become bystanders to institutional bullying that is unprecedented in US History; but, instead of resisting, too many are participating. They have adapted to an oppressive environment of blind obedience. They have become obedient children, like the “good” Germans who worked in the concentration camps during WWll. When children are afraid of punishment, you can make them do anything. The same is true with “adult children.” Adult children can be easily deceived with gaslighting.
Gaslighting is now the tool of people who have power over the nation’s schools. That abuse of power is perpetuating workaholism in children and teachers. Covert workaholism is to the emotional self what covert anorexia is to the physical self. Both Workaholism and Anorexia are self punishing addictions that lead to emotional desensitization and spiritual annihilation, which are characteristic of PTSD. Our schools are producing “over responsible”, “over self reliant” obedient children to a level of OCD behaviors. Their anxiety, hyper focus on performance, perfectionism, people pleasing behaviors, and self denial will lead to self punishing and self destructive behaviors in adulthood. This school environment is teaching our children gaslighting as a sophisticated skill for survival.
Gaslighting is a US phenomenon of cultural dysfunction that has become “malignant normal” in our current narcissistic/borderline society of folie au plusiers. Gaslighting has become “normal”, obviously, from chronic fear and insecurity. Young parents now have grown up in this environment of school dysfunction, although most cannot recognize how much more extreme it has become in recent years. Children who grow up with authoritarian teachers or parents are especially hypersensitive to critical judgment. That is the fear that fuels perfectionism, people pleasing behaviors, and the addiction of workaholism. Our society has become so imbalanced it is impossible to grow up in America without having some level of anxiety, depression, or mental health issues, regardless of socio economic status. This imbalance does not mean it is permanent, but “derangement’ is known to get progressively worse unless balance can be regained. That is the nature of spectrum behaviors.
Families have always had dysfunction and always will, but throughout history the community based school environment has helped to maintain a “normal” balance. That balance has changed as “The State” has gained more power over the school environment, gradually tightening the restraints of conformity, increasing the performance demands, and taking away freedom for teachers to use their individual talents or communities to self govern. Now that children are under the control of “The State”, a militarized regime of indoctrination with fear and intimidation has led to social and emotional regression for both children and teachers. This social and emotional regression in the school environment is a symptom of our cultural regression. At some point in our collective culture, chronic traumatization increased until it reached the breaking point of structural dissociation, like that of PTSD. Our society is now functioning like the split personality of Dr Jekell Mr Hyde.
The normal reaction to trauma is to repress it into the unconscious and dissociate it from memory. However, when high levels of stress are relentless and increase to the level of chronic traumatization, then dissociation becomes standard coping. Dissociation doesn’t allow interactions with positive emotions or memory, nor does it allow new learning to take place. It is the auto pilot behavior of cognitive brain functioning that is rigid, repetitive, and robotic, like Dr Jekell.
The repressed elements of the unconscious are sometimes called “shadow”. Shame and guilt are the primary elements of shadow, with anger as the gatekeeper. Projection from the shadow comes via reactionary behaviors, primarily through body language. Any perceived threat that might expose elements of the shadow can trigger anger in the form of impulsive aggression, or withdrawal, as in fight or flight. There is also “freeze”, which tends to be the response for children since they are captive in their environment. Their coping in this dysfunctional codependent school environment has increasingly become “dissociation”, which is an escape, either from fear or boredom.
A “trigger”, which is a potential threat of exposure of shadow elements, may direct impulsive aggression inward, toward the self, or outward toward others. For children who live with the fear and insecurity of “reactionary behaviors” from their teachers or parents, or experience emotional neglect, fear of punishment, or lack of validation from caregivers, their “self talk” becomes punishing and is programmed into personality. Their sense of self, identity, and ability to function independently is greatly impacted by their unconscious self punishing verbal flagellation. This unconscious punishment to their “self” over time tends to increase to more self destructive behaviors, including suicide.
Children’s perception of their “self” is a mirror of how their caregivers see them. Their perception is based primarily on reactionary behaviors of parents, teachers, and peers. When children’s basic social and emotional needs are not met, and they are conditioned to become “self sacrificing”, it is only a matter of time until their self denial turns into “self punishing” behaviors.
High intelligence and high performance usually mask the anxiety related self punishing behaviors that underly the covert addiction of workaholism. It has only been in recent years that the dynamic of workaholism has been recognized as an addiction that leads to spiritual annihilation. In addition, workaholism typically leads to other addictions or comfort seeking compulsive behaviors, such as alcoholism, drug addiction, sex addiction, gambling, food, possessions, pornography, and obsessions with sports or leisure activities that serve as escapes. Workaholism does not require a “job”, since anyone, children included, can become obsessive about performance. The tragic impact of self punishing behaviors for children is that it causes withdrawal into obsessive self restraint or constriction that is hardwired into personality.
As a collective society, our shadow has become a force of its own. Our nation has a fragmented self. We are not functioning as a whole, but in parts. We are functioning with the same dysfunctional dynamics as a codependent Covert Narcissistic Family. Our outward appearance looks normal, but our dysfunctions and abnormal compulsive behaviors are covert. Gaslighting is a coping mechanism that maintains a constant supply of shame and guilt to perpetuate this dysfunction. We see gas lighting now in all areas of government, corporations, military, churches, schools and families; however, the most permanent damage it causes is to our most vulnerable group – children. Children are at the mercy of their environment in families and in schools. Gaslighting is the standard tool of a sociopathic society that has lost its moral compass. We are that society.
Covert workaholism is to the emotional self what covert anorexia is to the physical self. Both Workaholism and Anorexia are self punishing addictions that can lead to spiritual annihilation and emotional desensitization, which are characteristic of PTSD. Our schools are producing “over responsible”, “over self reliant” obedient children to a level of OCD behaviors. Their anxiety, their hyper focus on performance, their perfectionism, and their people pleasing behaviors will lead to self punishing and self destructive behaviors in adulthood. They will learn gas lighting as a sophisticated skill for survival.
We are a society with anxiety disorder that has reached an extreme imbalance on the spectrum. We must stop feeding the anxiety that stokes the primitive brain. We can restore balance, but only if there is awareness and a unified effort. We need to recognize that children are sensitive human beings and have basic social and emotional needs that require validation and support. They need healthy role models who are kind, patient, trustworthy, and have a moral conscious. They need teachers who can connect thru empathic understanding. Teachers are the responsible adults who can recognize the impact this school environment of fear has on children’s mental health, and we need to change it.
Mental health professionals in education who have observed this disturbing decline into authoritarianism and codependency can recognize how educational management has used gaslighting to mask control and punishment. Tapping into the fears of teachers, parents, and children, “The State” has used every aspect of gaslighting to make people think this obsession with testing and performance is “authentic” in a rigorous learning environment. It is as “authentic” for children as Abu Ghraib was for the prisoners in Iraq.
Our children have lost the freedom to learn and develop in a healthy natural way. Our once noble profession is being used to exploit, manipulate, and abuse children in ways that will impact their future health and their ability to function independently. This is inhumane. This institutional emotional abuse needs to be reported to the highest agency in every state that is responsible for child welfare.
Three years ago, after observing increasing and disturbing signs of chronic traumatization in children who were “victims” of the testing obsession in Texas, I wrote a professional report for the Texas Health and Human Services Committee pointing out this environment as “institutional psychological abuse” for children. I am a mandatory reporter. I did my job by reporting abuse. I am an enlightened witness to the abuse. However, they did not respond. Senate committees do not respond to a single person, unless they happen to be a lobbyist. Only Senator Steve Kirk on the Education Committee responded with concern, but there was little action. We in the schools are all mandatory reporters. This will take a unified effort. As enlightened witnesses to this abuse, we need to get organized. We need the help of mental health professionals to educate our state legislatures about “institutional child abuse”. I am sending a copy of this article to Dr John Gartner of Do No Harm to ask for advice and to see if teachers may link with the mental health professionals of this group. Our state governors need to hear from us. We have some strong “Climate Governors” who are willing to stand up against President Trump’s incompetence and support the Paris Climate Accord. Why are our governors not recognizing that children are the most neglected, abused, and endangered resource on the planet? Why are they not recognizing the destructive dynamic in our schools that is perpetuating mental illness and destroying children’s health and future?
How do we recover our profession? How do we recover our workaholic teachers? If we can recognize that most of us are the products of “overly” responsible parents and “overly” responsible teachers who grew up as “overly” self reliant children in a workaholic society, then we can learn to understand the nature underlying their struggles as the same as ours. To recover our spirit, we must disconnect the punishing voice of critical authority that was programmed into our brains by every parent, teacher, older sibling, and cruel human that we ever encountered during our developmental years. We must recognize that as “overly responsible” sensitive people who became teachers, we are all workaholics. We need to educate ourselves about this sinister covert addiction and the impact it has on our families and those in our care.
We must stop the verbal self flagellation from perfectionism that beats us up with every mistake, that makes our performance demands go higher and higher without limits in order to please some unknown critical authority in our brain. We must stop and say “enough”, and start recovering ourselves and our profession. We must embrace our shadow, and acknowledge those elements of shame and guilt that are keeping us hostage from fear of exposure. We are human. It’s ok to make mistakes and be imperfect. Find a safe person you can trust and put words to those dark elements of the shadow and get them out. Or, go to a Smart Recovery group that is anonymous and find support. You can learn skills to validate your authentic emotions. You can learn to stop the self punishing behaviors and treat yourself with kindness and respect. We must recover our teachers’ mental health in order to recover our profession. We must bring back a healthy balance in order to exorcise the destructive force of “Mr Hyde” that has taken over the schools and calling itself “State Tests”.
We need awareness to recognize children’s emotional needs, and skills to validate those emotions. We can learn to interact with kindness rather than cruelty, with respect rather than disrespect. In order to help our children, we must give up the obsessive control and restraints that we have placed on ourselves and projected onto our children. We must overcome codependency and allow ourselves to experience autotomy and the freedom it brings. We must educate ourselves about the nature of self punishing behavior, the addictions it causes, the dynamics of codependency, and especially the covert anxiety that leads to the addictions of codependency. If there is any social group that has a chance of helping to recover our dysfunctional society, it will be the teachers; but, first they have to get healthy enough to recover from their own codependency in an oppressive environment. How did we fall into this self destructive pattern that is destroying our profession and the children in our care?
It is typical for high performing “adult children” to be workaholics if they grew up in codependent families where dysfunctional OCD behaviors were covert, and often masked by high performance, career success, wealth, social status, talent, or pleasing appearance. In their adult life, they tend to mirror the same relationship dynamics, with work, with possessions, with special interests, and with people, because they use the same dysfunctional coping mechanisms as in childhood; and, they usually have the same belief system. They continue to cope with avoidance and dissociative denial, which is what gave the name “adult children”. They maintain a faux front in order to protect their repressed self. Their repressed and punished inner child lives with social isolation and emotional deprivation, which is projected via their hyper reactionary behaviors. Some typical names for codependent family dynamics are Covert Narcissistic, ACoA Trauma Syndrome, PTSD Families, or Fairy Tale Families.
We can all relate to some level of dysfunction in our families because we are human, we are not perfect, and neither were our “overly responsible”, “self sacrificing” parents. At some point, self sacrificing behavior becomes self punishing behavior, and cruelty to self can also be projected outward.
Overly responsible codependent people who are self sacrificing managers or “caretakers” of others are high risk for “self punishing” via “perfectionism” and “people pleasing” behaviors. They learn to deny their own basic needs, such as the emotional comfort of interactions with others that bring them joy, play, humor, or emotional comfort. Self punishing behavior over time is the chronic traumatization that leads to spiritual annihilation, or structural dissociation. Tragically for families and schools, the covert self punishing behaviors of workaholic teachers and their obsessive need for control is typically unrecognized, but it is projected onto vulnerable children whom they have power over. The children develop obsessive self restraint from chronic fear. They lose vitality and spontaneity. They will not allow themselves close emotional attachment to others. They will deny themselves opportunities to play or laugh or to experience pleasure and joy. This intergenerational trauma in workaholic families is passed on unknowingly for generations, as it apparently has been in schools as well. Teaching is a career magnet for sensitive caring intelligent “over responsible” “over self reliant” people who follow a noble cause. Even though teacher or parent projections are “unintentional”, as Alice Miller says in her book, “Drama of the Gifted Child”, “Unintentional cruelty hurts too!”
Teachers, we have participated in abuse to children. It is time to take off our blinders. It is time to validate and embrace our shadow. It is time to recognize our addiction. Only then can our inner child return to heal our fragmented self and allow us to function with wholeness, with an authentic self. It is the repressed child that carries the spirit, that carries the emotions. Without emotions, without empathy, we cannot have a moral conscious. We need to become a light force, and we can. Dr John Gartner, will you please help us find a way to heal our profession?
Scientists have called this cultural phenomenon of social regression and dysfunction in the US “reverse evolution”. Too many people are functioning with dissociation in their primitive brain, which is called the Reptilian brain. Have we reached the point in reverse evolution where humans will become the next Great Extinction, and only the Reptilians will prevail?
Changing an attitude is like flipping a light switch. Teachers and mental health professionals can be the force to flip that switch from cruelty to kindness, from codependent to independent, from totalitarianism to democracy, from war to peace? Can we start first by restoring childhood in America to a healthy level of “normal”?
Joyce Murdock Feilke
School Counselor in Texas 1980 -2014
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